When the words of the world begin to drown out our thoughts and feelings, where do we go?
It seems we have to find a spot to filter out the noise. I’m privy to escaping to hidden hills where all the lights sparkle and people become nonexistent. It’s only street lights and parked cars and the problems I’ve chosen to solve.
In my mental journey to this escape, I see myself on that hill, sitting on the slanted slab of rock, knees to chest, arms around legs. I feel embraced into the world's cacoon, I’m its child, it accepts me no matter race, color, or creed. Up here I have peace, no one to dismiss me, and no one requesting my presence.
It's a daily task to be unaffected by what people perceive of you, one minute you think you got it and then it's your loved one passing judgment, how much constructive criticism can one take in a day?
I think when it comes to personal growth sometimes we should be left to our own devices. We must look deep within ourselves and catch behaviors non-conducive to our internal growth. Become so in tune with who we are and who we are becoming, we see where and when we may be leading ourselves astray.
It's what's in us, not on us.
Each moment, each sentence is a sentiment to learn from and should be celebrated as such. When we say the right thing, smile. When we catch ourselves doing the wrong thing, take a step back. Reflection can be our grace and savior if we allow it. So be not afraid of missteps and mishaps for they pave that path to who we don’t want to become and where we don’t want to go.
Be sure to truly learn from that event so we aren't doomed to repeat ourselves. Perpetual shortcomings are really masked personality traits. Beware of the fine line between positive and negative habits and those habits shaping who you can become. Learning lessons when they arise can prevent you from having to learn on other people's time or at the expense of other people's feelings and experiences.
When you find your spot in the world where you're able to filter out the noise, cherish it and get to know the real you. Sit with yourself, feel the emotions that seem to have been drowned out.
The you, you’ve been searching for, lies right beneath the surface, awaiting your conversation and connection.
